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I logged on to write my photo Friday blog. I’ve got to say, I am numb. I feel sick. I have a million questions and I have been in tears multiple times while watching the news.

I see my son wander unknowingly throughout our home, asking for a snack or a hug. All I can think of today are these Moms and Dads who lost their little ones today. Their babies who; like usual; sat down at their small desks to learn their ABCs and 123s. Most of those children in that small, primary colored classroom will not be going home tonight. As humans we generally band together in situations like these. We feel heartache even though we are all strangers and we live hundred of miles apart. We are born with an innate quality to protect and most of us would give our life to save a child. What a senseless, sick tragedy.

I can not help but think of the family of the shooter(s). The news states that he was a troubled and disturbed twenty year-old and had a plan to kill his mother, who was the kindergarten teacher at the school. This must have been one troubled young man. As a parent it would be difficult not to blame yourself. Wondering if their was anything you could have done.

All in all, today we are shaken. So much sadness, so much sickness in the world.

The only thing that brings some peace to my heart today, is that this is not our home.  There is a song called, “This is my Temporary Home.” I am reminded of it today. It always brings tears to my eyes because it talks of a child who is 6. He does not have a family and is moved around foster homes. But, he explains that he is not afraid because earth is just his temporary home. These babies that passed away today are with the Lord, no pain and no fear. It is the people who are left behind that are in immense amounts of pain and suffering. They need our prayers.

As I was sitting down to write this today, I noticed a friend on Facebook who shared another’s status. He shared much of the same sentiment that I was feeling today in a very beautiful manner. He included a verse, it was more than appropriate.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” –John 16:33

The Lord is in control.

In some ways today my gratitude list seems selfish, for so many this day will always be remembered as horrific. So I will keep it short, and the items on the list will most likely be shared with many of you, especially in light of what has happened.

Give extra hugs and kisses to your babies tonight.

Today I am grateful for

#91 – my son that is safe, home in my arms today
#92 – prayer that provides peace
#93 – overwhelming love of family
#94 – knowing God knows why even when I don’t
#95 – His promises

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more
death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the
former things are passed away.
–Revelation 21:4