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I have had some issues this week. I would like to sharing without disclosing too many details. This blog is not for pointing fingers or for putting blame on people. Or for being mean.

To be honest, I want to be mean. And I have a lot of finger pointing I want to do. Lots of shame on yous I want to send out. But I won’t.

I looked up the definition of anger. Thank you wikipedia.

Anger is an emotion related to one’s psychological interpretation of having been offended, wronged or denied and a tendency to undo that by retaliation. Videbeck describes anger as a normal emotion that involves a strong uncomfortable and emotional response to a perceived provocation. DeFoore. W 2004describes anger as a pressure cooker; we can only apply pressure against our anger for a certain amount of time until it explodes.

When I looked this up and read it through I actually couldn’t believe it! “A tendency to undo that by retaliation,” wow that is how I feel. You know when someone wrongs you? And you have that conversation in your head about everything that you would want to say. Most of it is not nice, thank goodness you go through it in your head first!

And to make my situation worse, I actually am having problems pertaining to people I can`t just “unfriend.” And in reality, thank goodness I can`t. They are around for good. So I better deal with this.

I was also thinking about the list I made just a few days ago. First point, be bold. To be honest that became the first point because of my current situation. Note to self, be bold so you don’t have to go through this again. Ok, lesson learned. A few points later….BIG faith. Ok, big faith. Note to self, trust God. Wow, two points that needed to be checked off in one week.

And then the blanket policy, be better wife, be a better mom, excercise more, eat healthier. Ok today – good mom, check. Excercised, check. Ate healthy, check. Be a better wife, darn! Ok work on that, even through the challenges of this week.

I needed a verse to subside my anger, because like the above definition, this week I have felt at times I would explode!

I found this verse:

Ephesians 4:26–27 – Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil.

And this one:

James 1:2-4 – Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith prodices steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

Both of them tell me to calm down. You are growing on your faith. They helped. And then I came across this verse:

2 Timothy 2:24 – And the Lords servant must not quarrel; instead he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.

This one reminds me that not only is it important to be kind. But, that I also have two little eyes on me all the time, that I am teaching. And according to the stair rules, I want him to learn to be kind, grateful, have patience, and the one hardest for me right now – forgive even when its hard. Well, I just got a big kick in the butt! Am I all of a sudden happy? No. But I know that I need to work through this in a better, less bitter way.

May the Lord be with you through whatever you may be going through today, tommorow, next week. And don`t forget, the answers may just be right there in that big book!